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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY.....MEEEEEEEE.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!

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life is stressful. i feel like im far below rock bottom. its like nothing can go right. im still looking for a job. i swear it is impossible to find one. i have applyed to so many places and ive even applyed more than once to a lot of places and no one is hiring. the only places i can think of are phone jobs. and im really scared to get one of those because i know i couldnt do it. i could not sit there and listen to people drag on about stupid things. but im worried i might have to, i just know that i wont be able to keep it and i need a job i can keep. it feels like i am just dead. dead to everything. the world is like falling down around me and im sitting back in a freakin lawn chair and watching it all happen. i feel like things are just getting harder and harder. i thought getting school out of the way was going to help. and shit got worse. and to make everything worse i broke a freakin string on my guitar. that pissed me off. yay for being at the bottom of the ocean and not being able to breathe. i just dont know how much more of this i can take. im trying so hard to just swim up to the surface but i cant even see it anymore. i cant wait for things to finally start going right and finally feel good about myself. well im off to bed to so i can wake up for another stressful day. what else lies ahead for me i wonder. sorry for this depressing and long and probably boring blog. but i needed to just babble on about my boring and dull life. most of this is just feelings because im deep in depression and i dont mean a lot of it. but its just what comes out of the top of my head.

NEW CAR

i have a new car yayyyyyy!!! its freakin awsome i love it. wanna know the cool thing about it? this car could actually make it out of state and back. CRAZY HUH! its freaking awsome. and my parents are freakin awsome for getting it for me. well. its our car. haha but when i get a job im gunna be making payments on it monthly to pay them back. and when im finally done paying it will be my car :) thanks to laurie's sister because shes the one who was selling the car and thanks to brandon for being the middle mad haha. im not gunna post any pictures of it because im to lazy. you will just have to come see it for yourself.

THANK YOU

Thank you everyone for coming to my graduation and for the presents you got me. thanks a whole whole bunch! it really means a lot. honestly i never thought i would finish high school. ever since elementary school i didnt think i would be able to finish. i was so pissed off in 11th grade at how the school was doing things that i was really close to just saying screw it im done. well i did say that but i never went through with it. i did get the papers from the counclers to. but i decided to just stick with it. and now im glad i did. thank you again!!

alicia and shawn this is for you!

WE BEAT YOU GUYS FAIR AND SQUARE! me and mike are just to good at everything to loose :) muahahaha. we are unstopable. we was on FIRE!!!

VERY IMPORTANT NEWS!!!

My fellow Americans. Yesterday something happened that will change history forever. It will Change the future for a certain person for the rest of his life. It will always be a moment to charish, and look back on and say hell yeah in your face to everyone who didnt think i could do it. Yesterday i finished mother freakin high school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAS UP?!?!?! BAM!!!!

EVERYONE CELEBRATE!!!

FOR THE NEW AIDEN CD COMING OUT TODAY!!!!!!

i know most of you dont care. but i do haha. and i have a boring life so this is what i blog about. YAYY IM SO EXCITED TO GET IT!!!